relapse

its bad this time real bad.....everything makes me think of him.
i was doing sooo good. its like when your a drug addic or an alcholic and you relapse what do they call it falling off the band wagan? not that i was addicted to him....(well i mean what the definition of addiction hold on im going to look it up....
ADDICTION - compulsive need for and use of a habit-forming substance (as heroin, nicotine, or alcohol) characterized by tolerance and by well-defined physiological symptoms upon withdrawal)

all i want to do is text him. its gets even more pathedic.i went to rayanne and emilys tonight and we watched sex and the city and i compared him to mr.big WHO THE FUCK AM I......i sound like some pathedic 13 year old scene girl cutting her wrists at home. the thing that makes me so man is that he doesn't feel the same way and never will. its been a year ONE YEAR since we met and im still freaking out over him. what the hell is wrong. god im pathedic.

im going to start cleaning my room and try to forget about it.

Back from the dead

Well after a long hiatis im going to start this shit up again...

1st things first this movie is coming out




YOU HAVE TO READ THE BOOKS FIRST THERE SOO GOODDD.



also my birthday is coming up. going to PA with some friends the week before the celebrate it im stoked. nothing else is really new school and work is basically my life. i've been spending all my time with emily and rayanne...and missing someone i shouldn't be missing blahhhhh.....slipped up a little last week when i got wasted but im back on track. and pretending it never happened hahaha.

this week i have monday and weds. off these are the first days i've had off in months im so excited for them its going to be amazing. im going to do nothing on monday and maybe go to the zoo on weds cause its free. oh well im going to go talk to you later