late night entry.

so tonight i hosted trash and at the end of it i was waiting to get paid and a guy who has become a very close friend of mine and me were having a conversation and in the talk he said that me and him were a like. which by all means is flattering but i took a look at where i am right now and realised that hey I'm still depressed over a guy who fucked me over three times. and i was nothing but nice to him i have had so many chances to be with other people but i have waited around even though we don't talk anymore for him to realise how amazing i was to him and how i really cared but NEWS FLASH not going to happen. he doesn't care about me or really anything. so i think for once and for all I'm finally over this and him and everything. I'm ready to find someone who can treat me good not cheat on me and go behind my back and talk to go knows how many boys.

the end.

PS. i miss rayanne and Emily.

Summer.

Its offically here and i promise to make this a good one. i have no responsiblities exept Work. Rayanne comes back in three weeks. a lot has changed since i last wrote in this thing. I got over that boy 100% the sight of him turns my stomach let him go out and be a whore and fuck random dudes without protection and get some type of STD its not my problem anymore. other than that i plan on doing a lot this summer this includes:

Beach.
Parks
Shows
PA
dance parties

and lots more.

i also know im going to findsome one this summer someone awesome. i can feel it.